Pure Country and Baby Steps

I was SO excited!  I got to see George Straight last night in concert!  If you know me very well, you know that he is my all time favorite singer.  He also brought Reba McEntire and LeeAnne Womack.  LOVED IT!  Also, we had AWESOME seats.  Jamie was not too thrilled with sitting on the floor, but I loved it.  I have seen George a few times before, but it was before they had the "big screen" and it could have been Elvis and I would not have known it.  I will post a picture later.  At the end, I was able to get right by the stage and get a great shot.  (My computer seems to not want to work today!)

The (work) week has finally come to an end.  It was a rough week with the OCD, but as the week moved on, I was able to see my perspective changing and see that everything was going to be ok.  I thought I would look back at this week and start making baby step goals to achieve to see if we can work on little things that may be stressing me out.  

1) Keep balancing my checkbook - now my CPA sister would be highly disappointed with me.  I was not ever really good at keeping the checkbook balanced.  I would check the bank account think about what I thought was out there, and say "Hm, I think we are ok".  I know dangerous.  Also, I know you are saying "I would think a person with OCD would be checking her bank balance every 5 minutes!" Well, I did, I just didn't and that made my OCD worse and I would check it again, then again, and again...(can you believe the money still wasn't there each time I checked it! Not sure what I was looking for).  So, baby step number one this week is to keep the checkbook up to date.

2) Get back on track with my Weight Watcher program - A couple of years ago I lost about 40lbs while doing Weight Watchers.  LOVED IT!  I had changed my eating habits and kept it up for about 2 years.  I stopped tracking what I ate and didn't really keep up eating healthy.  I am not happy with my weight and I think I need to exercise more. So I am going to start tracking my food again.  I know you are saying again - I would think a person with OCD would track every little thing"  Nope!  Then it becomes a realistic!  Right!?!  I told you in the beginning my OCD is not the typical type (however, I do repeat to myself several times yes the garage door is down! That is another blog in itself).   So, baby step number two this week is to keep track!

3) Spend more time with my boys - I know that this should be number one.  It really is since the others I can do throughout the day.  However, I cannot spend time with my boys all day.  You see, I must work and the law states they must go to school.  So there is 9 hours gone.  We are always rushed at night.  Math, spelling, dinner, baths, chores, reading and somethings that I am sure I left out.  All of this before bedtime between 8:00 and 8:30.  I am going to do something different this week to find time to do something FUN with them.  I feel like I am missing them grow up!  It is happening so fast! So, baby step number three this week is to play with my boys!

My OCD seems to be increased when the stress had increased in my life.  Some stress will always be there, so I am going to try to find a way to eliminate unnecessary stress to be able to function a little easier!

Let's Go...

I have OCD.  I am learning everyday how to cope and manage with this "mini" problem.  I do not have the kind of OCD where I must have everything perfect and clean (just ask J!).  I tend to worry more about others and what they do, think, wish and don't do.  I worry about things I cannot complete.  It makes me feel I lose control and I must finish (again, not with house work!).  This week has been a rough week and I have been thinking and thinking.  That is what I tend to do over and over again...THINK! SO, I decided, that there just may be someone out there that might want to read a little about what I am going through and how I am handling it.  I have a couple of people in my life that give me guidance and most of the time, they are right.  I am glad that they are there to help me along the way.  Both of them use God's guidance and wisdom to help me.  I am so thankful for these two women.  I am not sure that I would have made it through this week without them.   I am sure both of them probably would tell me not to do this, but they also will tell you I am a little hard headed!

This blog isn't going to be JUST about my OCD.  It is going to also be a way for me to journal and show MYSELF my days and what decisions I make and my journey along the way.  I was reading another blog tonight of a friend of mine and her struggle to lose weight.  She is struggling and documenting her days, even though she does not feel she is accomplishing anything.  I believe she is accomplishing something by showing everyone she can do it and that it may be hard, but she is sticking to it.  She is showing her journey and maybe someone else is going through the same thing and can relate. It is always good to know that you are not alone.  I think blogging is very important, especially for those people that need to go back and "review" how they got to a certain point and what was done beyond that point.

I will blog about my family, my job, my pets, my house, my BFFs, my hometown, my current city and many more topics.  Who knows, I might even make a comment or two about Politics (don't really like to get into much of that stuff)!

So let's "Saddle Up Our Horses" {I am a big Steven Curtis Chapman fan!} and blaze this trail together!

Until Then!

~Mini~